Excerpt from Simone Weil
Simone Weil (Penguin Lives), Chapter One
--From Simone Wiel (Penguin Lives) by Francis du Plessix Gray. (c) June 2001,
Viking, used by permission.
PART I: HOME
1. The Factory of Genius
GROWING UP in Paris in the first decades of the twentieth century were two contented
children from whose household all toys and dolls had been categorically banned.
It had been their mother's intent to nurture their intellectual skills, and
the gambit had obviously worked. The older child, Andrè Weil, born in
1906, was solving the most advanced mathematical problems by the time he was
nine; by the age of twelve he had taught himself classical Greek and Sanskrit
and become an accomplished violinist. His sister, Simone, three years his junior,
a strikingly beautiful girl with dark, limpid eyes, was reading the evening
paper aloud to her family when she was five, and would master Greek and several
modern languages in her early teens. The siblings often communicated with each
other in spontaneously rhymed couplets, or in ancient Greek. When reciting scenes
from Corneille or Racine they corrected each other with a slap in the face when
one of them made a mistake or missed a beat. Theirs was a hermetic, rarified
world-the young Weils' conversations, though never meant to exclude anyone,
were so laced with literary and philosophical allusions that they were barely
accessible to outsiders. Who could have guessed, for instance, that Simone's
recitation of the lament for Hippolyte from Racine's Phèdre was meant
to inform her brother that she had completed her Latin composition and was ready
to study Aeschylus with him as soon as he was finished with his differential
calculus?
The Weils' saga begins, as so many do, with the myth of the perfectly happy
family. The uncommon brilliance and talents of their son and daughter may have
been the crowning glory of the Weils' cosseted lives, but it was hardly the
only one. Dr. Bernard Weil's practice as an internist had thrived ever since
he had opened it. His wife, Selma, was a dynamic woman who radiated intelligence
and joie de vivre, and their mutual devotion was legendary. As for the early
flowering of the Weil children's genius (how could one have wished for more
amazing children?), Mme Weil was almost totally responsible. Dr. Weil-kind,
loving, and thoroughly enlightened, but taciturn and easily overwhelmed by his
forceful spouse-was far too busy with his medical practice, and let his wife
make the major decisions concerning their children's education. Selma, also
known in the family as "Mime," had much desired, in her youth, to
become a doctor. Her father having forbidden her, for the usual patriarchal
reasons, to go to medical school, she seemed to have rechanneled her vast energies
and ambitions into her children's success. Because few educators were skilled
enough, in her judgment, to stand up to her son's and daughter's formidable
gifts, within a span of five years Simone and Andrè would attend more
than a half-dozen schools and be instructed by scores of private tutors. One
might well say that the dominating Selma Weil was a genius factory of sorts,
masterminding every move in her children's intellectual training, tapping every
available educational resource to assure the fulfillment of their talents.
Mme Weil was as scrupulous about her children's physical well-being as she was
about their education. A phobic dread of microbes ruled her household. The Weils
were close friends of the eminent Russian-born microbiologist Elie Metchnikoff,
a director of the Pasteur Institute, who had won the Nobel Prize in 1908 for
his pioneering research on infectious diseases. Having picked up from the scientist,
as Andrè Weil later wrote, "a dread of germs which [Simone] would
carry to an extreme," Mme Weil ruled that her children should not be kissed
by anyone outside the immediate family. When she took her son and daughter onto
a Paris bus she had them sit on the top deck so as to minimize any chance of
infection. Compulsive hand-washing was another habit she imposed on her children.
At mealtimes, if Andrè and Simone needed to open a door after having
washed their hands, they had to shove it open with an elbow. These phobias about
food and germs would strongly affect Simone's psychic makeup. The word dégoutant,
"disgusting," seems to have been frequently used by the Weils, and
from the time she could talk she often said, "I am disgusting." By
the time she was four she disliked being kissed, even by her parents, and for
the rest of her life she displayed repulsion for most forms of physical contact.
When she was five, a friend of her parents, a doctor, was so touched by her
beauty that he leaned down to kiss her hand. Simone burst into tears and cried,
"Water, water! I want to wash!!"
Simone Adolphine Weil was born on February 3, 1909, in her parents' apartment
on the Rue de Strasbourg, just south of the Gare de l'Est (since destroyed,
the street was rebuilt as the Rue de Metz). When she was five her family moved
to a larger flat on the Boulevard Saint-Michel. Her mother, née Salomea
Reinherz (she had shortened her first name to "Selma"), came from
a wealthy family of Jewish businessmen who had prospered in the import-export
trade in many countries. Selma spent her first few years in Russia, which her
parents left in the wake of the 1880s pogroms to move to Belgium. Hers was the
more artistic side of the family. Her father wrote poetry in Hebrew, and her
mother, who would live with the Weils until her death, was a gifted pianist.
As for Dr. Bernard Weil, who was addressed by his children as "Biri,"
he came from a family of Jewish merchants that had been settled for generations
in Strasbourg. His politics were mildly left of center, and he was an extreme
secularist. He disliked talking about his Jewishness. This reluctance must have
had its share of complexities, for his mother, who lived on in Paris into the
1930s, remained very pious. She kept a kosher kitchen and proclaimed that she
would rather see her granddaughter die than marry a Gentile. When visiting her
son's family, she would follow her daughter-in-law, Selma, into the kitchen
and scold her for cooking foods that were contrary to Jewish dietary laws.
In this ritualistically hygienic family, Simone, who had been born a month premature,
spent a very sickly infancy and childhood. When the baby was six months old,
her mother continued to breast-feed her while recovering from an emergency appendectomy.
Simone began to lose a great deal of weight and grew very ill. When she was
eleven months old Mme Weil was persuaded to wean her, but Simone, in an early
struggle of conflicting wills, refused to eat from a spoon. She became so thin
that several doctors gave her up for lost; until the age of two she did not
grow in height or weight, and had to be fed mush from bottles into which increasingly
large holes were pierced. Reflecting, as an adult, on these early crises (which
might have played a role in the severe eating problems she developed in adolescence),
Simone sometimes speculated that she had been "poisoned" in infancy
by her mother's milk: "C'est pourquoi je suis tellement ratée,"
she'd say, "That's why I'm such a failure."
Simone continued to be delicate throughout her childhood. At the age of three
she took months to recover from her own appendectomy, which so traumatized her
that for many years the sight of the Eiffel Tower, which she and her mother
had had to pass on the way to the hospital, made her cry. Whenever a stranger
came to visit her family, she even left the room in fear that he was a doctor.
Her mother grew all the more obsessive about her daughter's health, pampering
and cosseting the hypersensitive, moody child. "She is indomitable, impossible
to control, with an undescribable stubbornness that neither her father nor I
can make a dent in," she wrote a friend when her "Simonette"
was five. "I certainly have spoiled her too much....I can't help but fondle
and kiss her much more than I should."
Although they never rebelled overtly against their coddling parents, the young
Weils clearly became very gifted at manipulating them. As they grew older they
occasionally derided their exceptionally protected childhoods. One of their
favorite pranks was to get on the bus without their socks on a cold winter day
and go through their "neglected children" routine. Teeth chattering,
shaking with mock shivers, they announced to concerned passengers that their
neglectful parents did not even buy them any socks. ("You wretch!"
a woman once shouted accusingly at Mme Weil.) Another good game was to go knocking
at strangers' doors to beg for food, pleading that their parents were letting
them "die of hunger" (they especially asked for sweets, which were
forbidden in the Weils' home). On hearing of such jests Dr. and Mme Weil were
overcome with shame and indignation, and their offspring continued to act out
their psychodramas all the more gleefully.
The advent of World War I, which put to rest the complacent myth of progress
that had prevailed for over a century among Europe's liberal bourgeoisie, was
the first pall cast on the young Weils' life. It was the critical event that
thrust Simone out of the smug cocoon of her affluent childhood and gave her
an inkling of what would become a central theme of her work-suffering or "affliction."
The principal impact of the war on her own family was constant relocation. Mme
Weil and her children followed Dr. Weil, who had been drafted into the army
medical corps, to the towns of Neufchâtel, Mayenne, Laval, Chartres, renting
spacious houses in each community to be close to his army quarters. It was during
these war years that Simone's precocious political consciousness and her bent
for self-sacrifice first became pronounced (at the age of three she had already
turned down a wealthy relative's gift of a jeweled ring on the grounds that
she "disliked luxury.") In 1916, when she was six years old, she decided
that she wished to go without sugar because "the poor soldiers at the front"
did not have any. That same year she adopted a "godson" at the front,
a French custom during World War I, whereby families signed up to send food
and clothing to underprivileged soldiers. By gathering and selling bundles of
wood, Simone earned her own money to buy provisions for "her soldier."
He came in 1917 to spend a leave with the Weils. Simone grew immensely fond
of him. He died in action the following year, and she grieved greatly over this
loss.
By the age of ten the intense little girl with the mass of tangled black hair,
who already read several newspapers a day, began to display her sensitivity
to issues of justice and her sense of history. In 1919, at the Great War's end,
she was appalled by the manner in which the Treaty of Versailles "humiliated
the defeated enemy." A few years later she would write to a friend, "I
suffer more from the humiliations inflicted by my country than from those inflicted
upon her," noting that the Versailles Treaty cured her once and for all
of any "naïve patriotism." A superdiligent student who displayed
a particular fascination with world events, she seems to have followed the course
of the Russian Revolution fairly closely and talked about it in school, for,
upon being accused by a classmate that year of being a Communist, she defiantly
replied: "Not at all; I am a Bolshevik." Issues of domestic justice
were equally urgent. During a summer vacation, Simone, increasingly uncomfortable
with the sense that she belonged to a very privileged elite, assembled the bellhops,
chambermaids, desk clerks, and porters at the hotel where her family was staying,
chided them that they worked too hard, and urged them to form a trade union.
A few months after the war's end, as her family was settling back into their
apartment on Boulevard Saint-Michel, Mme Weil noticed that Simone was nowhere
to be seen. She rushed downstairs with her housekeeper to see what Simone was
up to. The ten-year-old was found in the thick of the labor union demonstrations
being staged a few blocks down the avenue, marching alongside the workers as
they sang the Internationale and shouted their demands for better wages and
hours.
The year 1919, when her political consciousness began to flower, offered Simone
yet other epiphanies. According to Andrè Weil, it was then that the Weil
children first learned that they were Jewish, a discovery that needs some elaboration.
Both Dr. Weil, a professed atheist, and his wife exemplified the pattern of
extreme assimilation that distinguished the progressive Jewish intelligentsia
in France. This integration had to do, in part, with the Revolution of 1789,
through which France became the first country in Europe to grant Jews rights
of full citizenship, and which enabled them, in the following centuries, to
rise to higher positions of eminence in the academic and political sphere than
in any other European nation (philosopher Henri Bergson, sociologist Emile Durkheim,
composer Jacques Halévy, Socialist premiers Léon Blum and Pierre
Mendès-France, among them). Notwithstanding the acutely anti-Semitic
currents later made manifest by the Dreyfus affair and the right-wing group
Action Française, France's early pattern of tolerance inspired its Jewish
community to display its patriotic fidelity by blending totally into the national
melting pot. "No Jew prays harder for his country than a French Jew...,"
in the words of the contemporary French Jewish scholar Alexandre Alder. "This
nation is the emancipator of Jews, and will provoke among them torrents of eternal
devotion."
The intensity of Simone Weil's patriotism-a critical but savagely committed
patriotism that may have shaped her destiny more deeply than that of any twentieth-century
writer-might be seen in the light of this uniquely French pattern of assimilation.
The same need for assimilation led Dr. and Mme Weil to decide that their children
should not be told the difference between Jews and Gentiles until they had reached
a fairly mature age. Mme Weil had suffered considerably from anti-Semitism during
her youth in Central Europe and often stated her "profound desire to integrate
herself into French society." As an Alsatian Jew, Dr. Weil had had to deal
with a double level of alienation: Neither Jews nor Alsatians were ever seen
as genuine "Fran¸ais de France." Simone's extremely tortured
emotions about Judaism and her acute sense of deracination-her fundamental inability
to experience a sense of "belonging" to any organization or milieu-are
more understandable when seen in the light of these very complex family attitudes.
There was yet another way in which the year 1919-20 was an emotional turning
point for Simone: It was the time when she had to confront, and accept, the
genius of her brother, Andrè, who was to become one of the two or three
most prominent mathematicians of the postwar era.
As is the case with most mathematicians, Andrè's gifts had flowered very
early. He had come to his vocation at the age of eight, when he found a geometry
book at an aunt's house and studied it as an entertainment. Seeing him working
for days on end on mathematical problems, his parents took away papers and pencils
so that he could get back to occupations more "normal" to his age;
but they dropped this taboo when they noticed that he continued to write out
equations on cement sidewalks. At the age of twelve he was solving mathematical
problems beyond the doctoral level and was reading Plato and The Iliad in the
original Greek. At the age of fourteen, three years below the minimum age required
by the government, he obtained a special dispensation to take his bachot-the
state-sponsored baccalaureate exam-and passed it with the highest scores in
the nation. He then started preparing for the examinations that would allow
him entrance to the Ecole Normale Supérieure, the prestigious graduate
school that has trained much of France's intellectual elite-Henri Bergson, Jean-Paul
Sartre, Claude Lévi-Strauss, and Georges Pompidou, among scores of others.
Such preparations are traditionally made through a few years of cramming school
called cagne (ironic student argot for "laziness," also spelled "kha¯gne")-intermediate
institutions attached to the best lycèes-but Andrè whizzed through
cagne in one year instead of the usual two, passing the exams that allowed him
access to the scientific division of Normale with, again, the highest scores
in France.
How would Simone-immensely competitive and ambitious by nature, always striving
to attain first rank among her peers-accommodate herself to the fact of her
brother's all-too-evident genius? Any sense of rivalry the siblings felt toward
each other was bound to be made all the more complex by their great mutual devotion.
Notwithstanding her distaste for physical contact, Simone was extremely receptive
to other expressions of tenderness, and adulated her brother all the more because
of the affection he lavished upon her. From their early childhood on, Andrè
had done all he could to bring his brilliant but slightly less precocious sister
into his own rarefied sphere. At the age of eight, for instance, he had decided
that as a birthday present to his father he would teach his five-year-old sister
to read. He made her work for long stretches, sometimes six hours in a row-even
their walks were devoted to practicing spelling-and accomplished his goal in
a matter of weeks. "Simone...follows Andrè everywhere," their
mother reported during a summer vacation when her daughter was five. "She's
interested in his every move...he protects her, he helps her clamber out of
tight spots, he often gives way to her." As they were growing up, Andrè
continued to share with Simone what he was learning in school and on his own,
introducing her to Plato, explaining astronomy to her on the tram. The siblings
communicated on such a level of intellectual virtuosity that on one occasion,
a woman sitting behind them on the bus got off, angrily exclaiming, "How
can anyone train children to be such parroting savants!"
Relations between the siblings were not perpetually harmonious, however. The
scholarly silence of their quarters gave way on occasion to a muffled, thumping
sound. Mme Weil came rushing into their rooms, and found Simone and locked in
physical battle: "They fought in the deepest silence, so as not to attract
our attention..." Mme Weil recalled. "We heard only a shuffling; never
a shout. When we came into the room, they'd be pale and shaking, each holding
the other by the hair." But such squabbles-one particular spat began when
Simone refused to lend her brother her copy of Racine because it contained passages
about sex she felt he shouldn't see-were infrequent. Most times the Weil children
maintained the tone of affectionate serenity and elevated intellectual pursuit
established by their parents. Voices were seldom raised, divisive or sensitive
issues (such as Jewishness) were avoided. Though "Biri" is rarely
heard about in family accounts-he is not so much absent from family affairs
as eclipsed by his wife's dominating presence-the Weils' mutual devotion continued
to be exemplary. One of their idiosyncracies, at mealtimes, was to save the
morsel of meat or fowl they each knew the other most fancied-he saved her the
tidbit of lamb nearest the bone, she saved him morsels of the chicken's second
joint-with the result, their children teased, that each of them might end up
with the food they liked least. (Mme Weil, a hefty woman, was a gourmet who
put a great importance on cuisine and fussed a lot about the freshness and healthiness
of different foods; this, too, might have been a factor in the eating disorders
Simone was to develop in her teens.)
Other preferred topics of conversation at the Weils' dinner table-music, literature,
and Andrè's favorite hobby, the collecting of rare editions of Greek
and Latin texts-were occasionally held in the family's second languages, German
and English. It was a highly cosmopolitan family. Mme Weil, who had inherited
a tidy income from her prosperous merchant father, loved to travel, and several
times a year devised ingenious vacations for the family to enjoy together. In
fact, one is bound to be struck by the variety of fashionable, luxurious vacations
the commanding Mme Weil planned for her family. Spending substantial sums on
their travel, the Weils took off, not only on summer vacations but on any other
major holidays-Christmas, Easter, Pentecost, All Souls' Day-to a variety of
glamorous destinations, such as biking trips in the Tyrol or hiking treks in
the Black Forest. It might have indeed been difficult for Simone and Andrè
to take that essential step of a healthy adolescence-a measured rebellion against
parental authority-with a father and mother as eminently generous, progressive,
loving, and enlightened as Dr. and Mme Weil. They even knew how to use that
potent tool of emotional release, humor, to keep their kids in line; for along
with a merciless outpouring of intellect there was a lot of affectionate teasing,
at the Weils' dinner table, about everyone's foibles. Andrè had not studied
long enough hours today to be content, so the ribbing might go. Papa had not
sufficiently exhausted himself working at his office to be happy tonight. Maman
had not organized the lives of others as much as she would have liked. Simone
had not suffered enough to feel worthy. This last allusion was bound to be brought
up frequently, for it was clear, by the time she was fourteen, that the most
singular trait of Simone's character was her almost pathological receptiveness
to the sufferings of others, and her strong tendency to cultivate her own.
--From Simone Wiel (Penguin Lives) by Francis du Plessix Gray. (c) June 2001,
Viking, used by permission.
--From Simone Weil (Penguin Lives), by Francine Du Plessix Gray, Francis Du
Plessix Gray. © June 25, 2001 , Lipper used by permission.